Sabrina Ng

Everyone thinks you make mistakes when you're young. But I don't think we make any fewer when we're grown up. - Jodi Picoult Always follow your heart. Your mind might know what's best, but your heart is never wrong. Second was second for a reason.  'This is the point where we realised that no matter what grandeur and good the future may have held for us, it could never take back the cowardice and apathy that I had seen before. You could forgive, but you can never forget, and in not being able to forget, you would always see a different person. Everyone messes up, we are taught to forgive, but you realised even if you had done so, you were indifferent. Sometimes letting go of someone means putting an end to a one-sided fight. And when you can recognise it as that, everything becomes easier. Letting go does't mean that all of the good goes away. I know you're not a bad person; in fact, I still think you're wonderful. This story has ended. There...

Sometimes I do get reminded of pursuing my dreams of being an air stewardess, but not everything is able to fit into my life's timeline for now, & the furthest I could ever go is to leave it be as a dream, while I donned on this (SQ-liked) Kaleido Dress. Likewise, probably having a much needed getaway ever since before JC started will also be left as a dream. People can be really selfish, but I'll still do so much for all these people till the end. It's not exactly finals finals that are tormenting, but it's the surroundings rather. Anywhere, everywhere, as long as your head be turning, there are bound to be humans studying. This stressful aura can really be quite detrimental. It makes studying even worst lol. How can people burn midnight oil and just continue function the next day without any sleep?:o I wish I could to.  But nah, my body clock is normal, too normal to be true. I sleep really early in comparison to my roomies and wake up very early too!...

Find something that anchors you. Something that keeps you looking forward. One more month and I'll be so done with the first semester whoops finally. HSS & Hall Welfare Pack are coming in, but this only means nothing but bringing us one step closer to doomsday. Can I say that the HSS Biz Mag really up there, they got hoyu/ hair dyes (for those really stressed up with white hair haha) sponsors & chewy junior for us?? Go get your HSS Welfare Pack tmr!! It's the last day(: Got mini panic attack right up in the morning today, realising there's so many things to study for till I don't wanna study anymore ): I don't even know where to start. This stress level is slowly taking it's peak overtime. Emotional stress/ tiredness & piles of lost work with no idea where to start from, really adds on to the stress from this competitive aura. I THINK I'M NOT CUT OUT FOR SCHOOL. hahah. Time's really passing way too fast as we grow older each day. FINALS...

I promised once I got my hands on my new macbook, I would try my best to write consistently. Writing; that's the only platform where I can truly express what I really feel. There are people who have asked and wondered. It has been an issue that have been bugging me at times. I usually just give a passing remark, but maybe it's time to state it down.  Being partly in this field of modelling and pageants (HSS, MSBP, MAPW) , isn't all about glamour and fancy stuff.  No, it isn't as easy and fun as what it looks like. People don't understand. I wish they could put themselves in these shoes. It has its pains and sacrifices that I've got to bear, every industry has. They don't see the things we go through behind the scenes. It's not about fun ALL THE TIME, I'm put in fixes too, but it's about doing your job. It's not easy, there's hard work. When you gain some, you lose some. Yes, I've gained enriching journeys, but I've lost q...